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[Dec. 16th, 2007|02:11 am] |
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| | depressed | ] |
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| | 最近还好吗 by S.H.E | ] |
i really want to get myself drunk now...
because at least, i won't feel as bad and terrible now... i am really feeling the pain and tiredness in my heart now... but yet the feeling is just sinking in deeper...
i dun care if u see this or not...
just leave me alone for now... please... because i no longer can control myself and talk normal in front of you le... just go away...
why must i fall for you when i know that you are NOT the one... |
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| tests are finally over for now!~~~~~~~~ |
[Dec. 14th, 2007|03:41 pm] |
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| | home~ | ] |
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| | cheerful | ] |
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| | some old songs shown on tv~ | ] | YAYS!!! tests are finally over for now... =D past one week is totally no life... stayed at home all day~ but i know that i am not the only one... so le's all enjoy the holidays now!!!
went out for a while just now... camila bought her bag.. cathy bought her clothes... sheryl went off to meet her frenz after we left and dororin went off with her fren at orchard...by right i should be super happy and energetic to go shopping... but instead i nearly fell asleep even when i was WALKING... and i dunno why am i so tired... maybe these few days so little hours sleep... dark eye rings.. T_T so went home... i didn't buy any stuff! i wann clothes!!! accessories!! blahhh! so took mrt to marina bay then back to sembawang for me cos like that can sit down... so i fell asleep first... tired... but my fren called... so woke up and saw cathy and camila sleeping.. so in the end onli rested on the mrt for less than 10 mins...=x then went sun plaza alone~ walked around... no mood... =x went to the new christian book store annd took a look... bought some bookmarks and stuff... =D then went walked around... i can go shopping alone de! :) then saw this sleeveless blouse in This Fashion and another sleeveless shirt in Forever 21... really got tempted to buy that forever 21 de sleeveless shirt... but it costs 28 bucks... though i just got my pay... but i seriously bu she de.. =(( hais.. and both the blouses that i wanted, are just different by 4 bucks... TEMPTATION!!! go away... dun tempt me when i am not rich =x lol..
and thanks lotss to jill,fung for ur continous encouragement... and thanks jasmine and jialing for praying for me and calling me almost every nite to check how my test was and encouraging me! thanks girls!! <33
and saw on youtube just now that my favourite and long waiting show is out soon!!! ISWAK 2 --> It all started with a kiss 2... but not in singapore... =((( have to go youtube to search every week le.. =( it's a very nice nice nice show!!! gonna buy the vcd when it come out!!! dun wann wait for scv to show... the 1st part i watched more than 3 times! lol~~~ *waiting for the show!!!* so anxious!!! =p
and channel 8 de 手足2 is on next week!!! so it means that i will miss 2 episodes cos i had chalet on next wed and thurs... dun care!! chalet also must watch!!! WAHAHAS!!! lol...
meeting my pok mei mei tmr morning to chat and also shop around!!!! *smiles*
and i wanna go watch a lot of movies!!! like chipmunk, golden compass, enchanted blahh blahhh~~ so date me out anyone for a movie! blehhhs~
BYES!!! :) |
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| i need strength... |
[Dec. 13th, 2007|05:41 pm] |
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| | drained | ] |
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| | anything | ] | today de microB is like a gone case.. =x hais... and now super no mood to study for the last paper - IT paper...
and i dunno what the hell is going through in me... i seriously dunno... i dunno why i lost my temper just now.. i couldn't control my temper at all... now i feel that i am going to explode soon... tell me what happened to me... cos i dun like today de me... i know that i can control my temper de... but somehow.. i just didn't do that... regretted doing that.. but i cannot turn back time...
sometimes i feel that if i walk halfway and suddenly feel tired and just faint there, and wake up only when i am prepared to move on... cos now i really cannot move on anymore...
wish i am drunk now... at least i won't have to think...
i really wann to be strong... give shihui strength to be strong... cos she is very near to a breakdown soon...
還記得妳喜歡咬著我的手 然後給我妳嘴裡的球 要我陪妳玩丟丟
妳喜歡我摸摸妳的小耳朵 窩在我的身旁 沒有煩憂 在夢裡遨遊
好狗狗 好狗狗 謝謝妳陪媽咪這麼久 妳並沒有離開我 是搬到天堂生活
薔薔 妳要記得我 妳不要走丟 快快找到天使 在天堂給我保佑 薔薔 不要忘了我 還有親愛的 阿姨叔叔和妳的朋友 妳永遠活在記憶中
還記得妳喜歡咬著我的手 然後給我妳嘴裡的球 要我陪妳玩丟丟
妳喜歡我摸摸妳的小耳朵 窩在我的身旁 沒有煩憂 在夢裡遨遊
好狗狗 好狗狗 謝謝妳陪媽咪這麼久 妳並沒有離開我 是搬到天堂生活
薔薔 妳要記得我 妳不要走丟 快快找到天使 在天堂給我們保佑 薔薔 不要忘了我 還有親愛的 阿姨叔叔和妳的朋友 妳永遠活在記憶中
薔薔 謝謝妳
薔薔 妳要記得我 妳不要走丟 快快找到天使 在天堂給我保佑 薔薔 不要忘了我 還有親愛的 阿姨叔叔和妳的朋友 妳永遠活在記憶中
放手 有時不是結束 而是讓他幸福
this is a song sang by ella... song about missing a dog.. =(( and i simply love the last sentence...
放手 有時不是結束 而是讓他幸福 这样,我就满足了。。。 |
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| STUDY STUDY STUDY!!!! |
[Dec. 13th, 2007|12:24 am] |
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| | bedroom! =) | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | [cos study too much!] | ] |
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| | World's greatest by R.Kelly | ] | ahhhh~ i am still studying for tmr de microB test... lol... and why am i studying so late.. maybe because i cannot study in the day time.. hahas.. =D left 1 and a half notes to go...
bunyaviridae --> cross infection between plants and animals... reoviridae and rhabdoviridae also same -->cross infection between animals and plants... picomaviridae --> tentative cross infection between animals and plants... partitiviridae --> cross infection between plants and fungi phycodnaviridae --> cross infection between plants and protozoa totiviridae --> tentative cross infection between protozoa/fungi and insects(EEK!)
so i am learning this now.. but seriously.. i can get none of these chim words inside my brain... NONE! and i seem to forget what i studied just now? hais... -faints- wish me luck.. cos i seriously have no confidence for tmr de microB paper... cos last sem my microA de common test is F and overall D+... hais... most interested topic = one of the weakest topic... T_T
but yet, now i am still holding on for my studies because of my sister... she wrote on a paper and said to me : "hope that you pass" with a paper star... and she said to me as well: " jie jie.. i hope you pass your exams..." i am seriously touched by my little sister... she's still young but yet she did these... i know that others may think that it is just a small thing that my sister did... but to me... that few words is a source of strength and encouragement for me to carry on... i <33 my sister! =D
now resting a while... and listening to the song World greatest by R. Kelly.. the song that 4e1 sang in the last year in sec sku on teacher's day... memories~~~ lol... miss sec sku times.. =(
shall continue to study!!!
-looking forward to chalet and drinking alcoholic drinks too! =D-
i felt the feelings inking in deeper into my heart... but i seriously don't want to carry on falling in... |
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[Dec. 12th, 2007|05:19 pm] |
today de cell biology test is hmm... maybe okie bahx.. not as hard as biochem... tomorrow is microbiology B paper... 2 more papers and my long waiting 2 weeks holidays will be here!!! =D and worse is... today de weather is sooo nice to sleep! so just now use laptop halfway, i fell asleep... hugging my laptop and slept on the sofa...hahas... nothing else to blog~ just wish me luck for micro B test tmr... =D
and my mum told me that the news yesterday said the goverment needs lots of workers like teachers? so my mum asked me go consider be a chinese teacher... =S but i had already taken one quarter step towards my dream.. so... just one doubt... is our dreams or is the pay and stability of the job we had in the future(despite that it is NOT our dream).. which is simply more important and practical??? i need an answer to this... hais...
wonder how my future will be... i shall just leave everything into His hands =)
maybe i am just being a fool by letting myself get inside this again... knowing that at the very end, it would just be a disappointment all over again...
if only you could know...
IMPOSSIBLE!!! RAHHHH!
touched but you are NOT the one.. what a pathetic world... should i even believe in the first case? i no longer believe... =D
shall go study for microB le.. BYE!!! <33 |
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[Dec. 11th, 2007|01:07 pm] |
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| | home | ] |
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| | tired | ] |
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| | lalalas~ | ] | 2 papers down and left 3 more papers... today was biochemistry paper... and i think i most probably will just die for this paper... 30 mins and 40 questions... simply no time.. hais.. and my mind just went blank.. could not remember what i studied despite studying til 3am yesterday... onli had 4 hours of sleep... hais... went sun plaza find my mum after test... helped her carry the vegetables she bought and the lunch home.. nearly died of pain while walking home...
hais.. shall go relax for a while before continue to mug for cell biology... wish me good luck for tmr de test! =)
it is starting to sink in deeper...
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[Dec. 10th, 2007|02:26 pm] |
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| | home | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | blah | ] |
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| | 你太诚实 by S.H.E | ] | had organic chem test in the morning... dun ask me how is it... cos i simply just had no comments... and i dun wish to say anything much about that... what's over is over... no mind pondering bout me and make myself upset or stuff... embarrassing.. slipped and nearly fall down in school after coming out of toilet before test.. and there are like pple from my course going toilet at the moment.. WORSE!!! PAISEI!!! rahhh! must throw away that slipper le la... lol.. tomorrow is biochemistry test... and i haven't even started... now is already 2.30pm... went to teach tuition straight after my test finished... and onli ended at 1... and i am so TIREDDD... oh wells.. but the feeling of getting pay is so NICEEEE!!! hahas.. =D hope tests can faster finish... and wish me good luck for tmr de paper... cos seriously, i dun have confidence... =S
and hopefully by end of this week(after my tests), i would change back to blogspot.. since my frenz around me found it hard to tag here.. sorry all for the mafan-ness.. =D and i wann to continue learning piano again! or guitar!!! =D i also wann learn driving~~~ drive~
你太诚实
哎~~~~~~~ 谁拉住我谁救救我我从高空狠狠地坠落 谁叫醒我说这是梦说你和她什么都还没有 在窒息的沉默中你握住我的手 爱怎么了我怎么了一句话都没有说 我曾经以为爱情应该诚实 但诚实却是最尖锐的刀子 坦白一切留给我决定是多么的自私 我恨你就连你的感谢都太诚实 你不懂最大的温柔是掩饰 在我转身之前你看不到我流泪的样子 你没有错我没有错像一阵风吹熄了承诺 你挣扎过你要我懂那谁来懂我心里的黑洞 我从来没有这么渴望你欺骗我 想开一切正疮百口宁愿到底怎么过 我曾经以为爱情应该诚实 但诚实却是最尖锐的刀子 你坦白一切留给我决定是多么的自私 我恨你就连你的感谢都太诚实 你不懂最大的温柔是掩饰 在我转身之前你看不到我流泪的样子 哦~~ 我曾经以为爱情应该诚实 ho~ 但诚实却是最尖锐的刀子 你坦白一切留给我决定是多么的自私 我恨你就连你的感谢都太诚实 ho~ 你不懂最大的温柔是掩饰 在我转身之前你看不到我流泪的样子
this song is sang by S.H.E... nice song! =D
go mug for biochem liaos. bye bye! =) |
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[Dec. 9th, 2007|09:31 pm] |
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| | home home home... | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | as usual... | ] |
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| | S.H.E songs.. BYE =S | ] | RAHHHHHH! back to blog.. know that i should not waste my time blogging.. but oh wellss.. just a quick post...
i am sad!!!! tues they gg celebrate jill de bday and i dun even know if i can make it... =( wed E190 got outing to barstop or whatever place and i CANNOT go!!! why must the school put the tests on such periods... =x today jill fung they all also went out to discuss bout the games for the chalet... and I CANNOT GO DISCUSS either!!! what the BLAHHHHHH! =x ahhh~ =(( and i having sore throat now... but i wann sing kbox... )!@(*#(^#&*%&#T$ lol...
and my mind is now in a state of emptiness and blank.... HELP ME!!! i can't seem to remember what i studied... how... =((
RAHHHH! back to studying!!! after tests i wann go kbox!!!
BYE!!! ROAR!
i dunno know what is with me... but i know that i still can't stop myself from thinking.. maybe i am just one dumb girl that you WON'T even bother to notice.... |
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[Dec. 9th, 2007|12:21 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | my room! =D | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | stressed | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | 会有那么一天 by 林俊杰 | ] | finally back home... =D went to bugis with jill before going to expo... bought my cross! <33 passed by topshop and fox... we both wanted to go in.. but no time... =( after my tests i wann go shopping!!! then faster went to expo for bs~ learned more stuff during bs! =) invited uncle owl for service... and glad that he gave God and himself a 2nd chance... happy for u! =) then wasn't feeling well the whole day.. had headache halfway in service... almost frozen in expo hall 8.. lol... too cold le.. and stomach pain while fellowship.. dun understand what happened to myself these few days... rahhhh~ anyways went eat dinner with them... and my mood of course not good... dun ask me why... just NOT good... and sorry uncle owl... ignore u for quite long...
and thanks fung, kel and uncle owl for offering to help me with my studies... will ask for help if i dun understand! =) and sorry fung, jill and uncle owl.. made u all worry for me... i know i dun look okay just now... but really thanks a lot meifung!!! u been there for me on thurs and today... saw the helpless side of me today... thanks for all the advice and encouragment for me and thanks for being there.. if i dun have u or jill, think i may have already gave up on myself... "Depend on God's strength and not your own. because only with depending on God's strength, everything is possible.." thanks girl! i will remember this! =D
and i am such a weird and crazy girl... no matter what moods i going i still can laugh and smile... and from now on, i will try to be a happy girl!!! =D and... silent readers from my cell group and also uncle owl.. please kindly tag at my blog! so at least i know my blog still have some readers! =D
<33 the song i am hearing now! nice~ lyrics meaningful too.. =D
shall go study study study le... wish me luck! *smiles* =D
-pooof-
it really hurts when i saw you thinking that way... but i also know that i am not the one in your life... |
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| My FIRST experience with coffee~ |
[Dec. 6th, 2007|09:49 pm] |
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| | room~ | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | content | ] |
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| | some weird music(cos my sister keep forwarding it) | ] | today woke up late... and i COULDN"T hear my alarm clock at all!! oh wells.. so never go cell bio lect... hais.. then went at 1 for organic chem... prac was short.. but the report is gonna be hard.. -save me- then got biostats tut... after that went with audrey, camila, valli and cathy to j8.. cos valli said starbucks got free drinks... on the mrt there.. met this weird guy.. he went around smiling at pple and looking pple so near to their face!! then we were all looking towards that weird guy de direction... and this guy standing beside camila kept staring at us.. think he thought we looking at him.. LOL!! then got off at bishan~ then realised there was no starbucks! =( then we wanted to go coffee bean and see the price of the drinks there.. but it is under renovation... so went cafe cartel for drinks instead! then i ordered oreo frappe... some ice coffee with oreo stuff... 1st experience with coffee! lol.. 18 years of life and i never drink b4 coffee! =x the 1st taste of that oreo frappe is BITTER! then have to stir and mix the cream with the coffee... still bitter..hahas.. but as i slowly drank it up, the taste slowly get sweeter! among the bitter taste, there is sweet taste! 苦中带甜~ anyways after that went walk a bit... went to sasa.. cathy bought her stuff and camila bought her eye liner~ and me? nothing~ cos i know NOTHING about makeup! =S but i wann learn make up! and i wann buy my contacts!! buying it soon~ hehes!!! make up mahx~ shall go buy those stuff next fri with camila! shopping!!!! but tests 1st =x then after that we went home.. =D wonder if i will be awake or feel tired cos i 1st time drink coffee and i dun know how i will react to that caffeine~ lol.. =x
shall go do my IT project... T_T bye!!! =D
actually i understand what you mean.. BUT i dunno what u saying is true or not.. but i really fear of getting myself all hurt again... |
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[Dec. 6th, 2007|01:39 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | room~ | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | tired | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | none =x | ] | FINALLY DONE WITH MY REPORTS AND PRINTING OF NOTES... and look at the time.. tmr sure sleep in lect... hais... anyways zi lian a bit with my sister again... and this is due to STUDY STRESS!!! lol.. actually is report stress... hahas...
this is the "studious" me.. wahahas!

this is what happened to me when i see my reports and tests coming!

HEY YOU!! lol..

just feel like ignoring my reports and tests and go REST!! =S

my BIG eyes!

i <33 this action! lol..

me and my tongue.. hahas..

shall not post my sis de photos here.. =D and i am sure crazy.. pple rushing reports and study for tests i sit there zi lian.. i must be crazy.. LOL!
anyways mr owl wann me to mention that he is still listening to the same song! LOL! happy? =p and have "fun" on 15 dec for ur NS!! hahas..cannot audition with u then.. =(( anyways sat don't 放我飞机 wor.. hahas... must come! hope to see u and ur hair STYLED!! :)
k la.. now 2am liaos.. shall go slp! before tmr i woke up late again! bye!!! =D
i am still trying to hold on.. but the stress is forcing me to let go...
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[Dec. 4th, 2007|10:19 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | home~ | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | and bad mood.. | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | 需要你的爱 by F.I.R | ] |
sick, cough, sore throat, going fever soon i think... ahhh~
and now this F.I.R song is inside my brain and i had been listening it thanks to this friend of mine... LOL!!
k la... shall end my crap and rubbish.. simply NOT in the right mood to blog today!
-hoping chalet can faster come!-
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[Dec. 3rd, 2007|11:05 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | home | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | determined | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | fir new song~ | ] | finally i finished my microB quiz... think some of my brain cells just died.. was so freaking stressed up just now while doing the quiz.. but thanks God.. He blessed with a result that i am happy enough! =D though it is only 62.. but i'm happy enough... my 1st attempt.. so i shall leave it just as it is.. shall not do a 2nd time... dun wann stress myself up again.. =D but quiz onli i stressed until like that... can't imagine when tests and exams come, what will happen to me.. -faints-
today went for my appointment so never go sku.. since my appointment is as early as 11.05 and i got to reach there by 10.35.. far... =x and i waited for 1 and a half hours just for a 5 min check up with the doctor... and worse. i sat there for so long without eating anything or even drinking a drop of water at all since i woke up! so nearly fainted while i walked back to the mrt station.. oh wells.. so i dumb dumb sat there thinking it would be my turn soon.. but after 1 and a half hours then my turn... so my voice is like sore.. lol.. then took mrt back and bought bubble tea for my sis they all... went for tuition with my student... and she did most of my hw.. but NOT ALL!!! and the hw that she did = anyhow do.. though she claim she nv anyhow do.. chinese exercise --> 20/90 and 22/90... english exercise --> 22/95... i feel so failed as a teacher.. hais... so this time no more chance for her.. been giving her chances since lesson 1.. now lesson 6 le.. so smsed her mum to makesure her daughter do hw.. but the mum said "just let her do as much as possible lor".. i was like -speechless-... fine~i shall try my best to teach.. hope she will try harder in her studies NOT maple...
and lastly... thanks sheryl and camila.. i will forget the stuff and no longer wann to search for an answer... cos it's really meaningless to search for an answer that does not belong to me =D
i must not be lazy anymore!!! =D |
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[Dec. 2nd, 2007|10:49 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | home | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | curious | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | my house doorbell =p | ] |
somehow i just want to find out the true answer!!! |
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[Dec. 2nd, 2007|12:01 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | bed =x | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | drained | ] |
BAD MOOD as usual like ytd..
and my forehead is peeling damn bad...
i feeling very drained up.. -help-
this is a super random post cos i dunno what to blog...
haven study!!! exams cominG! but tmr got tuition!! =S off to sleep! BYE!! |
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| HELPPP! |
[Dec. 1st, 2007|01:38 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | home~ | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | drained | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | 珊瑚海 | ] | 一波未平,一波又起。。。
i need more than one answers to more than one problems that i am facng now...
and i need courage to face the problem now... -help-
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[Nov. 30th, 2007|09:59 pm] |
today got sku as usual.. dragged myself to wake up.. tired.. =x 5 hours of break was a total waste... cos i am firstly NOT in a very good mood today and i am just freaking tired.. so add tgt = no mood to study... =x then my emotions went crazy... cos of some stuff which i need an answer and solution!!! talked to fung a while.. but my emotions were still crazy... hais... anyways, finally kuanko de lesson ended... went out... audrey nearly tripped.. i laughed.. then i went out and threw tissue and after that i sort of swing one round... and GREAT!!! i nearly banged into a female lecturer who was walking by... -malu- -embarrassed- so this shows that i cannot laugh at audrey.. cos i will kana after that... LOL!! =p then was chatting while walking to mrt.. we talked about mrt jerk and breakdown~ and.. me and camila were like saying our mrt(red line) so far haven seen breakdown and stuff.. onli jerks.. and.. in the end.. our mrt broke down at yishun... what happened was i and camila were chatting~~ then reached yishun mrt.. the door nv close.. then the person said it would be delayed.. then we started laughing~ cos reminded of the conversation earlier on... then nvm~ after a while, the person said that got wad error so asked us to go out.. we also laughed! so got to wait for the second train that came... wah... damn squeezy la! nvm~ that was NOT the end of the story... halfway it stopped suddenly and cam lost her balance and pulled me.. next the mrt jerked! my turn to lose balance.. but i nv fall side.. i fell backwards and i was apparently leaning on this unknown person at the back..(sorry unknown person) and stepped the foot of another woman's.. but this woman's elbow was pushing my pi gu(butt) all the way sia.. pain la.. then when i turned behind and apologized she stared at me! not as if i wann the mrt to jerk and stop... i am a SUPER NO BALANCE person! LOL... finally, i reached semb mrt! =) hahas... end of story~ lol..
anyways i gotta go finish my report le~ BYE BYE BYE!! |
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| i am going crazy soon! |
[Nov. 29th, 2007|10:25 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | home la.. | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | curious | ] | my heart is stirring... why am i so stupid and dumb in the past!!! i made the correct decision at the wrong time, thinking that it was a wrong decision... in the end it all ended in a wrong decision which was supposed to be correct~ hais....
原来失去后才会懂得珍惜。。。
seriously... i dun wann to think bout this problem le... i am going crazy soon!!! i just need answers now!!! =x |
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[Nov. 29th, 2007|12:32 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | home~ | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | crazy | ] | shall blog a bit today~
saw daryl's proposal to his gf on cg blog.. damn sweet la!!! and he did that in front of so many people!! quite brave cos i guess it needs a lot of courage to do that in front of so many people.. hahas.. oh wells =)
finished my organic chem report~ and by rite i should be sleeping now! lol.. should i go for breakaway camp when my tests are coming in less than 2 weeks?? am i just risking my results if i go?? hais... how i wish i am smarter! then i can score better... so now dun need fret bout results.. rahhh~ no choice... have to continue! JIAYOU to those having tests soon like me =)
can't wait for cg chalet!!! =D
BYE! :) |
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