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[Dec. 16th, 2007|02:11 am] |
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| |  depressed | ] |
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| | 最近还好吗 by S.H.E | ] |
i really want to get myself drunk now...
because at least, i won't feel as bad and terrible now...
i am really feeling the pain and tiredness in my heart now...
but yet the feeling is just sinking in deeper...
i dun care if u see this or not...
just leave me alone for now... please... because i no longer can control myself and talk normal in front of you le...
just go away...
why must i fall for you when i know that you are NOT the one... |
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| tests are finally over for now!~~~~~~~~ |
[Dec. 14th, 2007|03:41 pm] |
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| | home~ | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  cheerful | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | some old songs shown on tv~ | ] |
YAYS!!! tests are finally over for now... =D past one week is totally no life... stayed at home all day~ but i know that i am not the only one... so le's all enjoy the holidays now!!!
went out for a while just now... camila bought her bag.. cathy bought her clothes... sheryl went off to meet her frenz after we left and dororin went off with her fren at orchard...by right i should be super happy and energetic to go shopping... but instead i nearly fell asleep even when i was WALKING... and i dunno why am i so tired... maybe these few days so little hours sleep... dark eye rings.. T_T so went home... i didn't buy any stuff! i wann clothes!!! accessories!! blahhh! so took mrt to marina bay then back to sembawang for me cos like that can sit down... so i fell asleep first... tired... but my fren called... so woke up and saw cathy and camila sleeping.. so in the end onli rested on the mrt for less than 10 mins...=x then went sun plaza alone~ walked around... no mood... =x went to the new christian book store annd took a look... bought some bookmarks and stuff... =D then went walked around... i can go shopping alone de! :) then saw this sleeveless blouse in This Fashion and another sleeveless shirt in Forever 21... really got tempted to buy that forever 21 de sleeveless shirt... but it costs 28 bucks... though i just got my pay... but i seriously bu she de.. =(( hais.. and both the blouses that i wanted, are just different by 4 bucks... TEMPTATION!!! go away... dun tempt me when i am not rich =x lol..
and thanks lotss to jill,fung for ur continous encouragement... and thanks jasmine and jialing for praying for me and calling me almost every nite to check how my test was and encouraging me! thanks girls!! <33
and saw on youtube just now that my favourite and long waiting show is out soon!!! ISWAK 2 --> It all started with a kiss 2... but not in singapore... =((( have to go youtube to search every week le.. =( it's a very nice nice nice show!!! gonna buy the vcd when it come out!!! dun wann wait for scv to show... the 1st part i watched more than 3 times! lol~~~ *waiting for the show!!!* so anxious!!! =p
and channel 8 de 手足2 is on next week!!! so it means that i will miss 2 episodes cos i had chalet on next wed and thurs... dun care!! chalet also must watch!!! WAHAHAS!!! lol...
meeting my pok mei mei tmr morning to chat and also shop around!!!! *smiles*
and i wanna go watch a lot of movies!!! like chipmunk, golden compass, enchanted blahh blahhh~~ so date me out anyone for a movie! blehhhs~
BYES!!! :) |
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| i need strength... |
[Dec. 13th, 2007|05:41 pm] |
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today de microB is like a gone case.. =x hais... and now super no mood to study for the last paper - IT paper...
and i dunno what the hell is going through in me... i seriously dunno... i dunno why i lost my temper just now.. i couldn't control my temper at all... now i feel that i am going to explode soon... tell me what happened to me... cos i dun like today de me... i know that i can control my temper de... but somehow.. i just didn't do that... regretted doing that.. but i cannot turn back time...
sometimes i feel that if i walk halfway and suddenly feel tired and just faint there,
and wake up only when i am prepared to move on...
cos now i really cannot move on anymore...
wish i am drunk now... at least i won't have to think...
i really wann to be strong...
give shihui strength to be strong...
cos she is very near to a breakdown soon...
還記得妳喜歡咬著我的手
然後給我妳嘴裡的球
要我陪妳玩丟丟
妳喜歡我摸摸妳的小耳朵
窩在我的身旁
沒有煩憂 在夢裡遨遊
好狗狗 好狗狗 謝謝妳陪媽咪這麼久
妳並沒有離開我 是搬到天堂生活
薔薔 妳要記得我 妳不要走丟
快快找到天使 在天堂給我保佑
薔薔 不要忘了我 還有親愛的
阿姨叔叔和妳的朋友
妳永遠活在記憶中
還記得妳喜歡咬著我的手
然後給我妳嘴裡的球
要我陪妳玩丟丟
妳喜歡我摸摸妳的小耳朵
窩在我的身旁
沒有煩憂 在夢裡遨遊
好狗狗 好狗狗 謝謝妳陪媽咪這麼久
妳並沒有離開我 是搬到天堂生活
薔薔 妳要記得我 妳不要走丟
快快找到天使 在天堂給我們保佑
薔薔 不要忘了我 還有親愛的
阿姨叔叔和妳的朋友
妳永遠活在記憶中
薔薔 謝謝妳
薔薔 妳要記得我 妳不要走丟
快快找到天使 在天堂給我保佑
薔薔 不要忘了我 還有親愛的
阿姨叔叔和妳的朋友
妳永遠活在記憶中
放手 有時不是結束 而是讓他幸福
this is a song sang by ella... song about missing a dog.. =(( and i simply love the last sentence...
放手 有時不是結束 而是讓他幸福
这样，我就满足了。。。 |
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| STUDY STUDY STUDY!!!! |
[Dec. 13th, 2007|12:24 am] |
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| | bedroom! =) | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  [cos study too much!] | ] |
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| | World's greatest by R.Kelly | ] |
ahhhh~ i am still studying for tmr de microB test... lol... and why am i studying so late.. maybe because i cannot study in the day time.. hahas.. =D left 1 and a half notes to go...
bunyaviridae --> cross infection between plants and animals...
reoviridae and rhabdoviridae also same -->cross infection between animals and plants...
picomaviridae --> tentative cross infection between animals and plants...
partitiviridae --> cross infection between plants and fungi
phycodnaviridae --> cross infection between plants and protozoa
totiviridae --> tentative cross infection between protozoa/fungi and insects(EEK!)
so i am learning this now.. but seriously.. i can get none of these chim words inside my brain... NONE! and i seem to forget what i studied just now? hais... -faints- wish me luck.. cos i seriously have no confidence for tmr de microB paper... cos last sem my microA de common test is F and overall D+... hais... most interested topic = one of the weakest topic... T_T
but yet, now i am still holding on for my studies because of my sister... she wrote on a paper and said to me : "hope that you pass" with a paper star... and she said to me as well: " jie jie.. i hope you pass your exams..." i am seriously touched by my little sister... she's still young but yet she did these... i know that others may think that it is just a small thing that my sister did... but to me... that few words is a source of strength and encouragement for me to carry on... i <33 my sister! =D
now resting a while... and listening to the song World greatest by R. Kelly.. the song that 4e1 sang in the last year in sec sku on teacher's day... memories~~~ lol... miss sec sku times.. =(
shall continue to study!!!
-looking forward to chalet and drinking alcoholic drinks too! =D-
i felt the feelings inking in deeper into my heart...
but i seriously don't want to carry on falling in... |
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| dreams? |
[Dec. 12th, 2007|05:19 pm] |
today de cell biology test is hmm... maybe okie bahx.. not as hard as biochem... tomorrow is microbiology B paper... 2 more papers and my long waiting 2 weeks holidays will be here!!! =D and worse is... today de weather is sooo nice to sleep! so just now use laptop halfway, i fell asleep... hugging my laptop and slept on the sofa...hahas... nothing else to blog~ just wish me luck for micro B test tmr... =D
and my mum told me that the news yesterday said the goverment needs lots of workers like teachers? so my mum asked me go consider be a chinese teacher... =S but i had already taken one quarter step towards my dream.. so... just one doubt... is our dreams or is the pay and stability of the job we had in the future(despite that it is NOT our dream).. which is simply more important and practical??? i need an answer to this... hais...
wonder how my future will be... i shall just leave everything into His hands =)
maybe i am just being a fool by letting myself get inside this again...
knowing that at the very end, it would just be a disappointment all over again...
if only you could know...
IMPOSSIBLE!!! RAHHHH!
touched but you are NOT the one..
what a pathetic world...
should i even believe in the first case?
i no longer believe... =D
shall go study for microB le.. BYE!!! <33 |
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[Dec. 11th, 2007|01:07 pm] |
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| |  tired | ] |
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| | lalalas~ | ] |
2 papers down and left 3 more papers... today was biochemistry paper... and i think i most probably will just die for this paper... 30 mins and 40 questions... simply no time.. hais.. and my mind just went blank.. could not remember what i studied despite studying til 3am yesterday... onli had 4 hours of sleep... hais... went sun plaza find my mum after test... helped her carry the vegetables she bought and the lunch home.. nearly died of pain while walking home...
hais.. shall go relax for a while before continue to mug for cell biology... wish me good luck for tmr de test! =)
it is starting to sink in deeper...
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| sighss~ |
[Dec. 10th, 2007|02:26 pm] |
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| | home | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  blah | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | 你太诚实 by S.H.E | ] |
had organic chem test in the morning... dun ask me how is it... cos i simply just had no comments... and i dun wish to say anything much about that... what's over is over... no mind pondering bout me and make myself upset or stuff... embarrassing.. slipped and nearly fall down in school after coming out of toilet before test.. and there are like pple from my course going toilet at the moment.. WORSE!!! PAISEI!!! rahhh! must throw away that slipper le la... lol.. tomorrow is biochemistry test... and i haven't even started... now is already 2.30pm... went to teach tuition straight after my test finished... and onli ended at 1... and i am so TIREDDD... oh wells.. but the feeling of getting pay is so NICEEEE!!! hahas.. =D hope tests can faster finish... and wish me good luck for tmr de paper... cos seriously, i dun have confidence... =S
and hopefully by end of this week(after my tests), i would change back to blogspot.. since my frenz around me found it hard to tag here.. sorry all for the mafan-ness.. =D and i wann to continue learning piano again! or guitar!!! =D i also wann learn driving~~~ drive~
你太诚实
哎~~~~~~~
谁拉住我谁救救我我从高空狠狠地坠落
谁叫醒我说这是梦说你和她什么都还没有
在窒息的沉默中你握住我的手
爱怎么了我怎么了一句话都没有说
我曾经以为爱情应该诚实
但诚实却是最尖锐的刀子
坦白一切留给我决定是多么的自私
我恨你就连你的感谢都太诚实
你不懂最大的温柔是掩饰
在我转身之前你看不到我流泪的样子
你没有错我没有错像一阵风吹熄了承诺
你挣扎过你要我懂那谁来懂我心里的黑洞
我从来没有这么渴望你欺骗我
想开一切正疮百口宁愿到底怎么过
我曾经以为爱情应该诚实
但诚实却是最尖锐的刀子
你坦白一切留给我决定是多么的自私
我恨你就连你的感谢都太诚实
你不懂最大的温柔是掩饰
在我转身之前你看不到我流泪的样子
哦~~
我曾经以为爱情应该诚实 ho~
但诚实却是最尖锐的刀子
你坦白一切留给我决定是多么的自私
我恨你就连你的感谢都太诚实 ho~
你不懂最大的温柔是掩饰
在我转身之前你看不到我流泪的样子
this song is sang by S.H.E... nice song! =D
go mug for biochem liaos. bye bye! =) |
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[Dec. 9th, 2007|09:31 pm] |
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| | home home home... | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  as usual... | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | S.H.E songs.. BYE =S | ] |
RAHHHHHH! back to blog.. know that i should not waste my time blogging.. but oh wellss.. just a quick post...
i am sad!!!! tues they gg celebrate jill de bday and i dun even know if i can make it... =( wed E190 got outing to barstop or whatever place and i CANNOT go!!! why must the school put the tests on such periods... =x today jill fung they all also went out to discuss bout the games for the chalet... and I CANNOT GO DISCUSS either!!! what the BLAHHHHHH! =x ahhh~ =(( and i having sore throat now... but i wann sing kbox... )!@(*#(^#&*%&#T$ lol...
and my mind is now in a state of emptiness and blank.... HELP ME!!! i can't seem to remember what i studied... how... =((
RAHHHH! back to studying!!! after tests i wann go kbox!!!
BYE!!! ROAR!
i dunno know what is with me...
but i know that i still can't stop myself from thinking..
maybe i am just one dumb girl that you WON'T even bother to notice.... |
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| =S |
[Dec. 9th, 2007|12:21 am] |
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| | my room! =D | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | stressed | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | 会有那么一天 by 林俊杰 | ] |
finally back home... =D went to bugis with jill before going to expo... bought my cross! <33 passed by topshop and fox... we both wanted to go in.. but no time... =( after my tests i wann go shopping!!! then faster went to expo for bs~ learned more stuff during bs! =) invited uncle owl for service... and glad that he gave God and himself a 2nd chance... happy for u! =) then wasn't feeling well the whole day.. had headache halfway in service... almost frozen in expo hall 8.. lol... too cold le.. and stomach pain while fellowship.. dun understand what happened to myself these few days... rahhhh~ anyways went eat dinner with them... and my mood of course not good... dun ask me why... just NOT good... and sorry uncle owl... ignore u for quite long...
and thanks fung, kel and uncle owl for offering to help me with my studies... will ask for help if i dun understand! =) and sorry fung, jill and uncle owl.. made u all worry for me... i know i dun look okay just now... but really thanks a lot meifung!!! u been there for me on thurs and today... saw the helpless side of me today... thanks for all the advice and encouragment for me and thanks for being there.. if i dun have u or jill, think i may have already gave up on myself... "Depend on God's strength and not your own. because only with depending on God's strength, everything is possible.." thanks girl! i will remember this! =D
and i am such a weird and crazy girl... no matter what moods i going i still can laugh and smile... and from now on, i will try to be a happy girl!!! =D and... silent readers from my cell group and also uncle owl.. please kindly tag at my blog! so at least i know my blog still have some readers! =D
<33 the song i am hearing now! nice~ lyrics meaningful too.. =D
shall go study study study le... wish me luck! *smiles* =D
-pooof-
it really hurts when i saw you thinking that way...
but i also know that i am not the one in your life... |
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